I Can Only Be Me

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Young black female. 24 years on my journey now. Looking for God, looking for love; heard that wherever I find one, I'd find the other.

This is my blog of ramblings, likes, interests. Poke around, stay a while, and enjoy :-)

twitter.com/BombAsShay:

    Late lunch: Steak and Gnocchi w/ Sun-dried Tomato Alfredo Sauce. #nom #yum #chefShay #gnocchi #steak #alfredo #bye

    Late lunch: Steak and Gnocchi w/ Sun-dried Tomato Alfredo Sauce. #nom #yum #chefShay #gnocchi #steak #alfredo #bye

    — 2 days ago
    #nom  #steak  #bye  #yum  #alfredo  #chefshay  #gnocchi 

    noteasybeingred:

    Alice Walker’s Definition of a “Womanist” from In Search of Our Mothers’ Gardens: Womanist Prose Copyright 1983.

    WOMANIST
    1. From womanish.  (Opp. of “girlish,” i.e. frivolous, irresponsible, not serious.)  A black feminist or feminist of color.  From the black folk expression of mothers to female children, “you acting womanish,” i.e., like a woman.  Usually referring to outrageous, audacious, courageous or willful behavior.  Wanting to know more and in greater depth than is considered “good” for one.  Interested in grown up doings.  Acting grown up.  Being grown up.  Interchangeable with another black folk expression: “You trying to be grown.”  Responsible.  In charge. Serious.
    2. Also: A woman who loves other women, sexually and/or nonsexually.  Appreciates and prefers women’s culture, women’s emotional flexibility (values tears as natural counterbalance of laughter), and women’s strength.  Sometimes loves individual men, sexually and/or nonsexually.  Committed to survival and wholeness of entire people, male and female.  Not a separatist, except periodically, for health.  Traditionally a universalist, as in: “Mama, why are we brown, pink, and yellow, and our cousins are white, beige and black?” Ans. “Well, you know the colored race is just like a flower garden, with every color flower represented.”  Traditionally capable, as in: “Mama, I’m walking to Canada and I’m taking you and a bunch of other slaves with me.” Reply: “It wouldn’t be the first time.”
    3. Loves music.  Loves dance.  Loves the moon. Loves the Spirit. Loves love and food and roundness.  Loves struggle. Loves the Folk.  Loves herself. Regardless.
    4. Womanist is to feminist as purple is to lavender.

    If there was ever a label I chose, this would be it.

    — 3 days ago with 614 notes
    #Alice Walker  #Womanism  #In Search of Our Mothers Gardens  #black feminism  #womanhood 

    #lyfejennings killing it! (at The Orpheum Theatre-Memphis)

    — 1 week ago
    #lyfejennings 
    Another #piccollage while we wait between these mini-intermissions. Yours truly… 🙋

    Another #piccollage while we wait between these mini-intermissions. Yours truly… 🙋

    — 1 week ago with 2 notes
    #piccollage 
    That’s bae. 💛💚💙💛 😍

    That’s bae. 💛💚💙💛 😍

    — 1 week ago
    The secret’s out!!!!! Yesss! My boyfriend is the bomb! This is about to be a good night… #spoiled #birthdaybehavior #LadiesChoiceTour (at The Orpheum Theatre-Memphis)

    The secret’s out!!!!! Yesss! My boyfriend is the bomb! This is about to be a good night… #spoiled #birthdaybehavior #LadiesChoiceTour (at The Orpheum Theatre-Memphis)

    — 1 week ago
    #birthdaybehavior  #ladieschoicetour  #spoiled 
    I had a helper in the kitchen tonight! My Lyssa-pooh helped me wash the dishes, cook the pasta, and trim the green beans! All the while jamming and singing around the kitchen. Fun times.

    I had a helper in the kitchen tonight! My Lyssa-pooh helped me wash the dishes, cook the pasta, and trim the green beans! All the while jamming and singing around the kitchen. Fun times.

    — 1 week ago
    #latergram #ussies Had a great time with @secret_squirl today! Books and conversation make for a good Sunday! Missed this girl!  (at Barnes & Noble)

    #latergram #ussies Had a great time with @secret_squirl today! Books and conversation make for a good Sunday! Missed this girl! (at Barnes & Noble)

    — 2 weeks ago
    #ussies  #latergram 
    Lunch: Parmesan Couscous w/Spinach, Mushrooms and BBQ Shrimp Scampi. #Yum!
#lunch #shrimp #couscous #foodie #chefShay #iCook #LetsEat

    Lunch: Parmesan Couscous w/Spinach, Mushrooms and BBQ Shrimp Scampi. #Yum!
    #lunch #shrimp #couscous #foodie #chefShay #iCook #LetsEat

    — 2 weeks ago
    #icook  #foodie  #letseat  #shrimp  #lunch  #yum  #couscous  #chefshay 
    Letting go of excuses, and giving this thing a try. Homemade chocolate chip cookies for sale! DM (or text if you have the #) for details!

    Letting go of excuses, and giving this thing a try. Homemade chocolate chip cookies for sale! DM (or text if you have the #) for details!

    — 2 weeks ago
    It’s amazing what you can do with a few ingredients… Nutella Rice Crispy Treats. They addictive. I’ve ate like 4 already. #Nutella #ricecrispytreats #sweetTreats #dessert #chocolate #homemade #chefShay #iMakeThings

    It’s amazing what you can do with a few ingredients… Nutella Rice Crispy Treats. They addictive. I’ve ate like 4 already. #Nutella #ricecrispytreats #sweetTreats #dessert #chocolate #homemade #chefShay #iMakeThings

    — 2 weeks ago with 1 note
    #dessert  #imakethings  #nutella  #ricecrispytreats  #chocolate  #homemade  #chefshay  #sweettreats 
    Selfie for this Tuesday. Devil didn’t want me to shine the first time I attempted to post this, but he can’t win!!!! Have a great day folks! (at Ned R McWherter Library)

    Selfie for this Tuesday. Devil didn’t want me to shine the first time I attempted to post this, but he can’t win!!!! Have a great day folks! (at Ned R McWherter Library)

    — 2 weeks ago

    My spirit has been highly porous lately. As just as quickly as I am happy, I am even that quickly saddened or depressed. I have cried numerous times from anxiety and being overwhelmed in the last few weeks. My appetite is missing though my urge to eat is always present. I don’t have dreams and goals lately; I merely have tasks that need to be completed and those that should have been completed ages ago. My feelings about myself are either nonexistent or not so positive when I have the chance to cross my own mind. The current song I sing isn’t the song I chose for myself. I know it isn’t the song anyone wants to hear. They would prefer that I sing a song of joy or strength or realize that the song that is choking me out is merely called LIFE and that everyone sings it, so I should just shut up. I get that. But if you are gonna ask me how I’m doing, know that it is hard for me to push a simple answer of “fine” past all of this frustration and hurt and questions I got. Don’t tell me you care about what I have to say if you’re gonna chide me for telling my truth. I don’t like being hurt anymore than anyone likes seeing me hurt. But this is where I am, and I can’t get out right now. But if you can’t deal with that, you don’t have to be here. At least you have that option.

    — 3 weeks ago

    Defying The Urge To Quit - Part 1
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    Ever had a morning where it felt so hard to get started? That was me this morning. I had no motivation, no positive thoughts for productivity. My body felt heavy, my mind felt heavy, my day looked dismal, and I really wanted to just turn over and go back to sleep.

    Found this piece while looking through YouTube for some encouragement. It really helped me get started today, reminded me that not quitting will be much more satisfying in the end.

    (Source: youtube.com)

    — 3 weeks ago
    #T.D. Jakes  #sermons  #quitting  #endurance  #encouragement