I Can Only Be Me

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Young black female. 24 years on my journey now. Looking for God, looking for love; heard that wherever I find one, I'd find the other.

This is my blog of ramblings, likes, interests. Poke around, stay a while, and enjoy :-)

twitter.com/BombAsShay:

    It’s hard to watch my mother cry.

    I’ve never jumped to words like “tender” “sensitive” or “emotional” to describe my mom. No, every Mothers’ Day, I look for the cards with “strength” “provider” and “determination” etched into praise. This is the woman who has juggled work, family, and business each and every day. She’s the short little lady who touches hot pizza ovens with her bare hands, who doesn’t say I love you often, but who hardly ever stops working to get her family whatever she needs. My mom is that strong black woman that no man or person could ever make her do something she’s determined not to do— in a word, stubborn. That’s been my mom. She hasn’t been the prettiest, the most affectionate, or most gentle woman to walk that earth, but she’s been whatever she has needed to be for those around her.

    So to see her confined in a hospital bed, hooked up to monitors, IVs, and God knows what else, with tears in her voice and down her face, I don’t know what to do with that. How do you soothe the one who has usually fixed you when you were broken? What solutions do you offer her “I don’t know“‘s when that’s usually her area of expertise?
    It all creates a feeling of desperation, to see this simultaneously remarkable and heartbreaking gesture. It makes my love for my mommy well up inside of me until I too have to cry a little to let it out. I hand her the solution on a platter in a heartbeat if I could. But all I can do is stand by her side, encourage her, and give her back the affection and support that all her years of sacrifice has built into me.

    — 3 days ago
    Late lunch date with the sis, featuring #sushi. 🍣🍱 (at A-Tan’s Hibachi Steakhouse)

    Late lunch date with the sis, featuring #sushi. 🍣🍱 (at A-Tan’s Hibachi Steakhouse)

    — 6 days ago
    #sushi 
    Finally made my fancy ramen. Stir-fried with some chicken and a few veggies. Would have added more but my eaters are picky! Anywho, it’s a meal for about $5, can’t lose like that!

    Finally made my fancy ramen. Stir-fried with some chicken and a few veggies. Would have added more but my eaters are picky! Anywho, it’s a meal for about $5, can’t lose like that!

    — 1 week ago
    Criminal Minds has finally made it to Netflix!!!! Yeesssss Jesus! 👏👏👏  I don’t know why he keeps blessing me… 😫😖🙌

    Criminal Minds has finally made it to Netflix!!!! Yeesssss Jesus! 👏👏👏 I don’t know why he keeps blessing me… 😫😖🙌

    — 1 week ago
    White privilege is being able to get a cop FIRED for shooting your DOG.

    rafi-dangelo:

    Remember when that IL cop got fired for shooting a dog who posed a deadly threat?

    I forgot all about this, which is why I love the Internet.  Thank you for reminding me that Black lives are worth less than those of  white families’ pets.

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    Neighbors called the police about a pit bull / shepherd mix in a yard not on a leash and upon arrival, he bared his teeth at one of the officers.  So, the officer — a 15-year veteran of the force — shot him, and the community was so outraged, the officer lost his job.

    It took Ferguson police a week to even release the name of Michael Brown’s shooter.

    I want you to lay these stories out side by side for your Racist White Apologist Friends.

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    I’m just gonna leave this here. It’s already on my FB, so let’s have it on Tumblr as well. I’m not saying animals aren’t important— but when a community can seek stronger punishment for the death of a DOG over a HUMAN Being, well then folks we got a problem.

    — 1 week ago with 687 notes
    wintergrey:

James Baldwin on “looting” (via x).

    wintergrey:

    James Baldwin on “looting” (via x).

    (via blackgirlwithanopinion)

    — 1 week ago with 5724 notes
    Cheap therapy. #painting #gelato #talenti #therapy #BeGoodtoYourself #HaveAHobby

    Cheap therapy. #painting #gelato #talenti #therapy #BeGoodtoYourself #HaveAHobby

    — 1 week ago with 1 note
    #begoodtoyourself  #gelato  #talenti  #therapy  #haveahobby  #painting 
    Impromptu Family Dinner.

    Impromptu Family Dinner.

    — 1 week ago

    dynastylnoire:

    stair-diving-with-hayes:

    Ladies and Gentleman, the man that will be in history books. He was throwing the burning tear gas. Not to the cops but away from the children protesting. In his American Shirt and bag of chips. Check his twitter.

    BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOST

    (via naturalblkgirlsrock)

    — 1 week ago with 240526 notes
    Sampler of #BestieBdayDinner. Love you @tlashase !!!

    Sampler of #BestieBdayDinner. Love you @tlashase !!!

    — 3 weeks ago
    #bestiebdaydinner 
    Thinking about shutting down my tumblr

    I’m hardly ever on this thing and no one is like stalking my blog tough.
    I just hate to lose all these memories. Plus I still like to lurk.

    — 4 weeks ago
    💜❤️He’s tryna beat me bowling. But he’s just lucky I’m not on my A-Game. ❤️💜  (at Andy B’s of Bartlett)

    💜❤️He’s tryna beat me bowling. But he’s just lucky I’m not on my A-Game. ❤️💜 (at Andy B’s of Bartlett)

    — 4 weeks ago